Your magick and manifestation practice is missing something crucial.
Have you been struggling to see things come through in your magickal practice? Have you worked spells, tried affirmations, and positive-thought your way into a headache, with little or no results?
Does your magick feel like it comes in fits and starts?
I get it. I’ve been practicing for decades, but no matter how many times I cast a circle or called the elements, something always felt off. No amount of vision boarding and affirmations seemed to make things really move.
I felt like I kept putting on someone else’s coat. The coat looked great on them, kept them warm and dry and protected. But on me, it fit funny. The sleeves were too short, the pockets had holes, and I couldn’t quite button it up. But my oh my, the color was exquisite. And these little details on the collar? Just my style.
I believed that particular coat was the way to practice magick, the only pathway to manifesting the life I wanted. So I kept putting it on.
I made some progress in my relationship with Spirit, and particular deities. I felt some connections to the work I was doing. But overall I started feeling frustrated. Even a little disillusioned sometimes. Like, was I just making it all up?
Does any of this sound familiar to you?
I think it’s something many of us go through as we’re walking a spiritual path. Especially one that just doesn’t quiteresonate with our unique frequencies. There are elements to it that feel amazing. We have experiences that show us–in the marrow of our bones–that there is something big and beautiful and mysterious out there to work with. Yet, too often it feels like trying to fit a slightly squared peg into a very round hole.
I believe this is because the practices we’re taught so often overlook the source of our greatest power and connection.
Because it is also the source of our deepest vulnerability and alienation.
Our shame.
Our shadow.
And, if you’re anything like me, that shame and shadow is all sorts of wrapped up around sex.
Of course it is. Sexuality is shamed left, right and center. We’re all pretty aware of that, it’s not news. FaceBook bans people for talking about female orgasms while leaving aggressively racist and violent pages untouched. Instagram will remove accounts of artists who dare to illustrate a breast, or a couple midcoitus. It’s baked into so much of the rhetoric around Christianity.
So it’s no surprise that someone coming to a path of spirituality that differs from the mainstream will still carry that shame with them. We don’t get an automatic exemption just because we realized we preferred pentacles to pulpits.
Sexual energy, however, is the core of everything.
It is the energy of attraction. The energy of creation. And what is magick but attraction and creation? What is manifestation, for that matter? When we close ourselves off to the full and healthy expression of our sexual natures, we close ourselves off to our most vibrant source of power.
Here’s the thing: you don’t need a partner to express your sexy self. All you need, in this moment, is a willingness to experiment. Start asking yourself questions about how you feel about sex, about your body, about sexual expression and freedom.
What does all of this mean to you in this moment? And then, start to look one layer down from there. Where did those feelings come from? Is that your voice you’re hearing, or someone else’s, telling you these things about yourself?
This is a path that starts, like all others, with a single, exploratory step. And I can tell you, from firsthand experience, the places it can take you are, quite literally, out of this world.
What has your experience been like?
When I started incorporating sexual energy and orgasms into my practices, I quickly pulled in a deep healing opportunity from an event that had been plaguing me for years; I called in a soul sister; I manifested a partner that fit my list to a T; and more. All with the space of a few months.
I’m writing a book about all of this. I’d love to hear any input, or questions you have around this topic, as well as any stories you might want to share.